I have sleep apnea. I’ve suspected as much for a while, and shortly after I closed down my blog I was finally diagnosed. I finally got my CPAP machine a few days ago to help prevent apnea. Things were going pretty good, until I had a power outage in the middle of the night and stopped breathing in my sleep for an extended period of time because the CPAP stopped working. This knocked me sideways, and I’ve still not recovered.
As a knock-on effect of going for months, if not years of having sleep apnea, I am now dealing with some health difficulties myself. I’ll spare you the details until I get an actual diagnosis, but suffice it to say that I am not feeling very good right now at all. I’m not sleeping well, (4 to 5 hours on average for the last few weeks) and I’m exhausted all the time. I feel constant brain fog, even directly after I wake up.
On top of my personal problems, my dad is still in hospice. My mom and I still are cooking, cleaning, feeding and changing his diapers.
Things are very stressful here, and unfortunately that stress is directly contributing to my ill-health; I need to control my stress to calm down and sleep and heal. And double unfortunately, because of my months of poor sleep because of the apnea, it is very difficult for me to control my emotions and reduce my stress. I feel so much stress/anxiety at the moment, that it’s translating into bodily pain, and making it very hard for me to get any sleep (I think I’m stuck in Fight/Flight mode permanently). I intellectually know I need to relax and heal, but it’s hard to relax under the circumstances.
I just can’t get a good night’s sleep. I’ll try to keep you all updated as to what’s going on, and my road to recovery. Maybe I can convince some of you to get your sleep apnea treated in the process.
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